One of the lessons I have learnt from this particular episode is that one has to trust and allow others to do the various things that are necessary. I have never really allowed anyone to control my life and destiny. That is probably why I never made a good passenger on an aeroplane. However, when necessary, one has to allow others to take control. Having said that, if one has the slighest doubt about what is happening, our right of free choice should be invoked and it is OK to ask questions or seek another opinion. Being in my current space, I cannot help but note the way in which some persons (in particular cancer patients) are horribly misinformed. Enough of that now.
I only have 2 radio-therapy sessions left. Still very strong mentally but the physical effects continue to take their toll. I now have had to resort to using the feeding tube for all my nutrition. One advantage is that all those "good things" that I should eat but did not like the taste now go down the feeding tube and I do not have to taste them. I still obsess about food, being able to taste and smell my favourite dishes. Last night the taste and smell of a nice curry with roti assaulted my thoughts!
At 3:00am this morning, the thought struck me that over the last 5 months, I have only spent 6 weeks at Spirit of Amberfield, our home in Knysna. Cannot wait to get home, see the mountains again and breathe some clean fresh air. A walk on the beach at Buffalo Bay also would be most welcome.
Again I must thank all of you who have left comments on my blog or sent emails to Margi. It really does help to know that there are so many persons out there rooting for me. Take care.