Thursday, July 16, 2009

Thursday 16 July 2009

One of the lessons I have learnt from this particular episode is that one has to trust and allow others to do the various things that are necessary. I have never really allowed anyone to control my life and destiny. That is probably why I never made a good passenger on an aeroplane. However, when necessary, one has to allow others to take control. Having said that, if one has the slighest doubt about what is happening, our right of free choice should be invoked and it is OK to ask questions or seek another opinion. Being in my current space, I cannot help but note the way in which some persons (in particular cancer patients) are horribly misinformed. Enough of that now.

I only have 2 radio-therapy sessions left. Still very strong mentally but the physical effects continue to take their toll. I now have had to resort to using the feeding tube for all my nutrition. One advantage is that all those "good things" that I should eat but did not like the taste now go down the feeding tube and I do not have to taste them. I still obsess about food, being able to taste and smell my favourite dishes. Last night the taste and smell of a nice curry with roti assaulted my thoughts!

At 3:00am this morning, the thought struck me that over the last 5 months, I have only spent 6 weeks at Spirit of Amberfield, our home in Knysna. Cannot wait to get home, see the mountains again and breathe some clean fresh air. A walk on the beach at Buffalo Bay also would be most welcome.

Again I must thank all of you who have left comments on my blog or sent emails to Margi. It really does help to know that there are so many persons out there rooting for me. Take care.


  1. Hi Grant,

    Just wrote Margi an email, but wanted to direct the same to you. You and Margi are having to pull through some seriously tough times at the moment but I cant wait for the time when you can look back and see it all in the past, as another hurdle you jumped together. And I am also a little worried about the two of you ascending in a puff of smoke by 2012 because you have been through so many initiations!! Well do keep on keeping on and blogging because it keeps everyone on the same page and able to send their energies effectively. We all love you , love kate

  2. The sound of a walk on Buffalo Bay beach sounds great. Something to look forward to. See you in September hopefully, when we will be visiting SA. Andrew.

  3. The sooner you two get back to God's very own piece of this world we have been blessed to live in, the better! When you do get here and are both ready to do that walk on Buffles beach please let me know, We would feel privilaged to be able to join you.